I haven’t been keeping up with this blog like I’d originally hoped. I don’t think I really know what kind of blogger I’d like to be, or even if I’d like to blog at all. When I started this blog I wanted it to be different from my last one; something that might be enjoyable and useful to people outside my family and immediate circles. The problem is that I didn’t really enjoy it as much. I like writing tutorials and things I’m learning, but not as much as documenting life. The second is way more fun to go back and read for me, and brings me much more joy. So, I guess instead of trying to fit a certain type of blogger, or cater to what I think folks would like to read, I should just blog for myself. If someone else happens to find it interesting then great! If not, that’s also okay. 🙂
All that to say, this post is going to be a bit more ‘journal style’ than my previous posts on this blog. You see, we’re expecting again! We found out we were having another baby on July 8th, not long before Gabe turned 1 on the 21st. So much has happened since then, including the discovery a few days ago (on the 4th of October) that we’re having a boy!
Everything about this pregnancy has been, well, ‘more’. More tired, more sick, more prepared as far as material things (especially since it’s a boy). It all just seems amplified. I’ve also had hormonal shifts that I didn’t have to deal with with Gabe. I got sad with Gabriel; out of the blue I’d just have a week of being emotional for little to no reason. With this little guy I had a period of anxiety that was tough. Just being worried about ridiculous things like someone breaking in, or being spooked really easy by something I’d hear or see (and this is coming from someone who seriously avoids scary stuff), and it didn’t help that I had a few vivid and bothersome dreams. And there’s been some of what I call ‘hormonal depression’. The kind that shows up and lasts a day or so and then goes away. I know the Lord used both to sanctify me, and I’m thankful in hindsight for it; I just wish I was better at being thankful in the moment. (As a side note, I’d take the sad over the nervous any day of the week.) But no matter what, I am so excited to have this little person growing inside me! I read an article recently about women who regretted having their babies and I thank the Lord that I don’t feel that way; that He’s given me joy in my children (yes, even the one I haven’t met yet). I never realized what a blessing that was until I thought about what it would be like to not feel that way.
I’ve got a list of things I’d like to get done before little man comes, but I’m trying hard to prioritize. If I can just get all my Christmas gifts ready in time I’ll feel good. 😛
Since I’m usually kind of picture crazy on my posts I figured I would include some here. 🙂 Enjoy a few bump pics!
This was taken one day after I started my second trimester. I didn’t have enough of a bump for a picture before that. Barely had enough here. 😛
And this is at four months along. I plan to take another at the end/beginning of each month, so hopefully I’ll remember to update as it happens. 🙂